this too shall pass.

4 am...mommy can i get on the ipad?

no, go back to bed.

 

4:50 am...mommy, now can i get on the ipad?

fine. but you better not whine later cause

you got up too early.

 

6 am...peww peww peww, brrrrrrr, choo choo,

fiewwww fiewwww.

seriously!? why are the cartoons on THAT loud.

 

...and so begins the crap of a day i'm having.

 

HOMESCHOOL.

 

haven't even bothered with it yet today.

not just cause i was woken up so early,

i'm just having a bad day.

which it seems like us moms are supposed to hide

from the world, and even worse for us HOMESCHOOL

moms because "you took on this responsibility"

yet i'm pretty sure regular teachers get substitutes?

 

anywho. i did "restart" up the good ol' chore pad

app on the ipad, (its the bomb, check it out)

and i taught my 5 year old how to read:

make bed, (clean) entry way, feed dog & (clean) room.

that counts as school i'm pretty sure.

 

then i laid in bed feeling nauseous for an hour because

i took my thyroid meds and didn't wait the

"recommended 30 minutes before you eat"

gets me every time.

 

my hair is a real mess too.

you know, when you take a shower and your bangs

get all wrinkled up in your towel cause you left it on

your head for too long. plus i have this lovely

hair that is 1/2 curly and 1/2 straight, so it either
needs to be straightened or curled,
to which i have done neither.

ya, i'm a real sight to see.

 

i don't understand why i can have it together

for like, 90% of the time,

but the 10% that i'm falling apart...

is the worst. ever. ever.

*sidebar: where are all the flies coming from!? omg.
for reals, i had the house closed up all night,
were they sleeping and just woke up!????*

 

so i'm telling myself,

"there are moms out there that would do anything

to stay at home with their kids like you do"

but it's not working.

cause if there are working moms that feel that way,

then their are homeschool moms that

would LOVE to see their kids off to school for the day,

not wondering if their every move or every word

is going to affect their education for the rest of their life.

 

i'm sure my kids will forgive me,

but probably not til tomorrow.

i've already cried, fell asleep on the floor,

made them eat cream-of-rice cereal, which they hate,

forced them to watch the duggars and their 19 kids,

not allowed them halloween candy at 9 am,

made them do their chores,

and now to top it all off,

i'm sitting at the computer typing,

totally ignoring them.

 

but as we all know,

kids don't see the things their parents do.

which is how it should be...

they don't understand how much energy it took to plan &

work a bake sale booth for 6 hours, then follow it up

with a big bbq at our house,

or all the planning went in to the next 2 weeks to come,

cause we have cheer, wrestling, basketball AND

soccer to figure all out again.

not to mention homeschool which is pretty full time.
so they don't know why mommy is tired.
or why mommy looks like a zombie.
or why mommy isn't being normal.

one day they will.

 

even though i'm already done with this day,
 in my heart i still feel kinda proud at this moment.

cause one is vaccuuming when i didn't ask,

and the other 2 are playing a learning game

on the leap pad, sharing, not fighting. wierd.
 

so i suppose this day isn't all bad and shot to hell.

yet we still need to write our 'persuasive essays'

to turn into our ES tomorrow. yikes.

 

i gotta get out of my funk as my hubby said.

 

but my point in all this venting and rambling,
 i wanna give a shout out to all the
homeschool moms

that have lost their minds today.

you're not alone.

i don't even feel like sugar coating this with some

'great ending',

but i will end it like this,

 

this too shall pass.
tomorrow is a new day.
i think i need a nap.
let's not pretend everythings perfect.
cause it's not, not always.
think positive.
read your homeschool bible.
that's what i'm gonna do.

 

.erin.